i did mention about it in the post before.
i'm a Bleach anime fan! everyday after school, i watch Bleach episode 8. i don't know why is very interesting. i can memorize each line in the anime have said.
the BI's paper i answer question 2, ”If only I had been more careful, that wouldn't have happened.”
the first thing came out is Bleach episode 8. i don't want any 'Shinigami' thingy in my essay, so i change the story a little bit from fantasy to become more live in the real world, still, the Ichigo boy can see the ghost coz there are people who live and can see things that we can't see.
in this story, i change Ichigo's name, their hometown, Tatsuki's name, how they met in the dojo class, how his mother died (it means not being eaten by a hollow.):-
and oh, i got B3 for my English SPM 2006, kinda sad =( i'm not good in English.
”If only I had been more careful, that wouldn’t have happened.”
The word that I always, always repeat in my mind. Every year on 16 June. This is my story about what happen; the darkest day of my life. It’s all start because of me.
My name is Jun Kaoru, friends call me Kaoru. I’m 17-years-old high school boy. I live in a small town name Amesian, ‘ame’ in Japanese measn ‘rain’. I live with my family; my comical crazy dad and twin little sisters, name Yuzu and Karin. My dad is a clinic doctor; our house is a clinic in neighborhood. My dad opened the clinic when I was only 5. I had a mother, she's a very beautiful. She died when I was 9. I feel very sorry and sad after what happen. I always blame myself. It always my fault. My dad keeps telling me to stop blaming myself but I can’t.
I also have this secret. There’s no one know about this except my family. I was born with special ability, I can see ghost. Not only see them but I can talk and touch them. I can see soul wandering around like they didn’t know they’re dead. I don’t know whether they can see each other. In my family, only I and my sister Karin can see it clearly. I hear my sister Yuzu only can feel it. They show no respond whenever the ghosts are near them.
When I was a little, only 9 years old that time, my mom send me to a Dojo class. To learned dojo. It’s perfect! I can protect my mother, of course. I’m maybe a slow pick-up but I can see how I can protect my family if I can master the dojo. I feel great. In the class, I met a girl same age as me. Her named was Erin, for me, she’s the toughest girl in the class and a tomboy on the outside. She soon is my closest friend and my rival. We always pick fight with each other. But still, she didn’t know about my ability. She once asked me I f I ever seen a ghost or something, but I denied it. Maybe she can read my movement or personality; and still, I also denied it.
About my mom, she’s everything. It’s a bit contra when think of how my father can end up married with my sweet loving mother. She was my heaven you can say that. I love her so much. All entire family, she was a soul. After one rainy day in June; we lost our precious one…
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‘Come on! You really weak! You’re a boy in case you forget!’ shouted Erin at my ear, and punched me on the face.
‘Come on! Get up!’ shouted her again.
‘You don’t give a chance to beat you, idiot!’ I never take back my words. A boy should never say that either if they fight with girls.
‘Oh come on! Just get up!’ Erin’s anger has risen.
‘Okay….’ I slowly keep up my feet straight and… DUSH!
YES! I beat her! I punched her on the face to 5 star for me! It’s brilliant. This is the first time I knocked her out. I won! I really want to tell my mother about this. She must be really happy for the news. After few minutes waiting, my mother come to fetch me up, I told her that I won over Erin.
My mom only smile and pat on my head and said, ‘That’s good sweetheart. I’m proud of you. Erin is a tough girl, though. You can be friend with her.’
‘No! she’s a girl! I don’t want to make friend with girl!’ My mother only laughs. Don’t worry mother, I already consider her as my best buddy.
Erin comes slowly from my back. She reach out her hand to shake’s mine. ‘Congratulations Kaoru! Next time I will beat you again.’ Erin says that with chicky smile.
The next day, my mother continue sent me to the class. I met Erin again, this time she didn’t give me any chance at all. She really like a boy. She beat me and punch me on the face. I feel very sad because I won yesterday. I stand up and tears came out from my eye just like a girl. We are totally opposite. I wipe my tears, I feel ashamed.
‘Hey, Kaoru! You’re a boy you know that right? Why are you crying like a girl? Look at me, I don’t cry if I lose.’ Erin say it to me. I ignored her. Then I saw my mother stand in front of the class door and smiling at me, I knew she watching me fighting. And I stop crying immediately. I smiled. I grinned. I ran towards her and gave her a big hug.
I heard Erin says to me, ‘A boy should not cry when they lose. He should fight back.'
It was mom, who save me from sadness. Thanks Mom. My mom fetched me up, and walk home.
It was rainy day 16 June. I wear rain coat while my mom use an umbrella on the way back home. I walked beside her and held her soft hand. We walk beside the riverbank. It was late evening with heavy rain and dark, you can’t see things clearly. Suddenly I saw something moves at the riverbank. It was not a ‘something’ but ‘someone’. A little girl. She wears white cloak and walk towards the strong current river. Is she mad?! Heavy rain causes the river waters start flowing, nearly flood. I grasp my mom’s hand tightly. But I can’t stand to see the girl walk towards the water, this is madness.
I can’t bear t see her die! What is she thinking? Suicide? My body run itself to save the girl. I let go mom’s hand I jump to the riverbank and run towards the unknown girl. I can hear my mom’s call out my name, loudly.
‘KAORU! COME BACK! WHAT DO YOU THINKING?! IT’S DANGEROUS!’ my mom shouted calling me to come back. I can’t stop myself and until I come ran closer to her and reach out my hand to grab her cloak. But why the cloak can get through when I grab it…? I know what’s going on..it must be a ghost. I feel dizzy so sudden. I heard my mother’s umbrella fell on the pavement and I knew she comes for me. I want to stop her because I only saw a ghost, but can you think these things happen like only 1 second. The rain became heavy and I only saw my mom’s silhouette. Comes for me, I at that time was falling to the wet grass near the river; all turn black and I hear mom’s scream –
I woke up; I feel the rain fell on my face. I found myself lay on the grass. I feel pain on my head, and I feel heavy on top of my body. I try to open my eyes widely, I saw curly hair. It was mom’s. I try to wake her but she has no responds. I feel blood all over my body, but not mine, it was mom’s too. It’s a really bad accident. I looked around looking for help, it’s still dark.
My eyes catch a dead broken tree. I saw blood on it. From that moment I knew. I can see and can imagine. The tree was hit by lightning and broken in two. My mom’s runs towards me to save me from fall into the river. Because of heavy rain, the grass be slippery because of much amount of water. And when mom runs, she slipped to the broken tree and accidentally stabbed herself at the top of the broken tree. She tried to get up to her feet but she couldn’t then she crawled to unconscious me to keep me save. She was sacrificing herself for me.
From that nightmares, my life’s totally change. I’m not as happy as I am before, I started to walk away from friends, even Erin, and she was the only one who knew about my mom’s death. Erin even looking for me afterwards to keep me accompanies because she worried about me. All I do is continuing live and adapt to the situation.
When the next year 16 June coming, this is what I always think. ”If only I had been more careful, that it wouldn’t have happened.”
